Consider the possibility that your sense of purpose has been hacked and rerouted, to empower that which seeks to suppress your true purpose. Until you receive the revelation of your power, and free yourself, you will remain both captor and captive — as your own warden, in your own prison, for the rest of your life. The world will do everything it can to seduce you to go to sleep, and if you refuse, it will then try to strangle you. To keep your innocence and faith alive you have to kick and scream and fight. You have to protect the beauty within you, and fight for it, like protecting a small child from a predator. Mediocrity and apathy is that great predator; the status quo embodied by the sleeping masses.